so here i am at the end of another summer. I am tired and refreshed. I am ready to do more and ready to rest. So many contradicting feelings. Sadness and complete Joy. Fear creeps in even as I sit here. All the time I tell others love Christ depend on him and yet I find it so hard to do myself. I know I shouldn't fear. I know that it is not of Him for me to be this way. Lord please help. Please come. Help me to move forward. Help me love you because I cannot do it on my own. I want to go.. please let me go.. if it is your will. I am in LOVE with you.